Rather than reply to the comments on my last post, I'm just going to say a few things here.
First, I appreciate everyone reaching
out. Thank you.
Second, it's not really just about
miniatures & gaming and how I feel about that. My interest is still
as strong as ever, but I'm frustrated by the lack of time and that's
where the blues set in. I haven't had time for any other hobbies or
interests in years, either. Life is my job and housework and sleep.
That's pretty much it. It takes up 25 hours of the day, and it's
exhausting. I've been having an increasingly hard time with this & feeling burned out -- I think that's where that last post came from. A bit personal, maybe not really appropriate for a hobby blog. But aside from work I don't really get to talk to actual people anymore.
Painting minis is the most "me time" I currently get. Most
of that is done in stolen moments, 10 minutes at a time between other
tasks (my desk is next to the laundry, so I'll frequently splash some
paint on while waiting for the washer to fill up...), or maybe (if I can
manage) I stay up late and paint for an hour instead of getting the
sleep I probably need even more. For now I'm just trudging on. As I
said, painting is about the only thing I can manage for myself, so for
now I'm going to keep doing it. But I think I'm giving up on the
illusion of gaming.